Posted by sampants at 204.122.127.20 on October 19, 1999 at 13:01:25:
In Reply to: An APOLOGY TO KEVIN AND VINCENT..PLEASE DONT ERASE posted by AnOldFan on October 19, 1999 at 11:34:30:
I said this before on the last board. Everyone who posts incendiery comments is HOPING to get a rise out of someone. I truly believe that some people are sitting and waiting after making said posts- just hoping to piss Kevin off so that he will respond. Many have learned that if you are a critical jerk, Kevin may respond, and then think that having Kevin write to them makes them special. I hate to see this board become a competiton based on who can piss Kevin off the most or who can get the biggest string under their post.
ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!
I am really sick of it.
Anna
: Well, I don't know if either of you are going to read this, or how many of you who are reading this is not Kevin and Vincent, but I felt I must get this off my chest. This is an apology for a thread of posts I created a while back. I was pummled by everyone and that is fine. However, as I said in the past, my original post was not supposed to come off as mean or harrassing or insulting and it obviously did. I tried to apologize soon afterward and was called a coward and told that I didn't stand up for what I believed in after I said it. That bothered me. Why? Because of the perception of what you thought I believed. However, it died after that and I quickly realized that no matter what I did on this board it was disregarded and soon erased. I just read the thread regarding J&SB#4. I see what happened. I understand what went wrong. It was not so much the opinions that I stated, but yet the sharp edge I put on them. I went back and reread it now, over a month later and I can't believe I wrote something like that, at least that harsh. I apologize to both of you. I know that it bothered you deeply, and that you both took it very personally, or not, I don't know anymore because I feel as though no matter what I say here now I will be condemned. I only say Kevin took it personally because a few days later he posted using a title "...some bones for you to chew on..." taking that quote directly from my post. I'm sorry guys. I loved the things you guys do and don't feel owed anything. I will say the one thing I am still disturbed about though, and you guys didn't do this, but everyone else did. I post a highly negative post and everyone started calling me a stalker and saying I am the kind of person you should fear. However, the other 5000 or so posters that (please, this is not meant to insult,) kiss your ass ,(okay, it did, Fuck!!!) (See, I could erase this line and you will never see it, but I want you to realize that I am using that phrase as a lack of better words.) are not considered stalkers. I don't get that. If I were you I would be afraid of the people who surround me that do nothing but praise me and defend me from negative critism. Those are the people that truly have a problem. Not being able to accept the fact that life depends on a equal share of good and bad. I don't take this anymore personal than you guys or they themselves do. Anyway, why bother, this is only gonna get shitcanned anyway right? Once deemed a VA enemy always a VA enemy I guess?
: Kev, we all know one thing, you are far far far from lazy. Don't let that eat away at you.
: AnOldFan
: "If I am cut, do I not bleed?"