Posted by geekrawk at spider-tr081.proxy.aol.com on July 07, 2000 at 23:34:01:
In Reply to: You've got a kindred spirit here, man... posted by Sarcasmo on July 07, 2000 at 20:56:14:
Thank god not everybody's a little sarcastic asshole about it. I'm going to respond to both messages here. I don't remember saying anything about having a three some, or even sex. If my answer was sex, her boyfriend could go to hell. But no, all I want to do is talk things over with her. Oh my god, talk? No sex?
It sucks because I still have feelings for her, and I doubt going extended peroids of time in between seeing or talking to her is gonna help me get over it, just make it worse because absence makes the heart grow fonder. I can't say anything as far as her current boyfriend goes, but her last one seemed like a bit of an asshole. He seemed protective and seemed to have the attitude of "she's mine..all mine", and always gave me dirty looks. I hate to sound like a hippy or something (peace man), but he just gave bad vibes. All I know about her current boyfriend is that he's 3 years older than her. It seems somewhat pathetic to me for a 19 year-old to be dating someone who hasn't even turned 16 yet, but will in a couple months. She told me to call her today, but of course it was pointless because she's never home. She's always out with her boyfriend and her other friends. Which just makes me feel great because here I am bored out of my mind. It's pointless to email her because she never checks her email. Makes me feel like I'm her friend. I tried to be there for her when she broke up with her last boyfriend...I even went to a fucking school dance that night with her. I even danced with her because she's been trying to get me to dance all year. But it's like...no matter what, I still love her. I was looking through negatives of pictures i took for my photo class last year, and there was some of her and I was just like 'why? do i love you?' then I would look at it and see. And if I ask that question when I don't have a picture of her around, I think of the fact that I just get happier when she's around. But...I'm just going to have to suffer, unless she changes her mind about liking me 'just as a friend', which seems doubtful. Man I really hope she goes to the coffee shop tonight expecting to see me play because she didn't get my email and I couldn't get in contact with her to tell her it's next week. She just deserves it...she's left me waiting for her to call me back, or hoping she shows up. But like it's happened in the past, she probably didn't go. Last month she was too tired to go see me, but she wasn't too tired to go to a party that night. Ahh...I just get so screwed in life. But at least someone else feels my pain.
richard