Posted by S.Townsley at 207-172-108-31.s31.tnt2.wlm.va.dialup.rcn.com on September 20, 2001 at 01:20:07:
Hi, folks.
I suppose I'm more of a "lurker" here than a contributor. I pretty much pop in to collect the goodies, see what Kevin said, and then scat. For that, I apologize. I had a lot on my mind, as I'm sure that many of you do, and I'm in the wrong "real-world" environment for sharing it. I figured I'd break the silence, by sharing with you guys some of the worries and frustrations on my mind. I suppose I feel closer to you folks now than I do in my own home-environ, at the moment.
Not to get all warm-'n-fuzzy on you guys. Sheesh...
I miss feeling like myself, a couple weeks ago, when I enjoyed movies with the random abandon of a guy in a free nation. That all went away pretty quickly, and I'm trying to get it back.
There may be--*will* be--a time, somewhere in the future, where we start laughing with more ease again. We start watching movies and not catching our breath everytime the camera pans New York skyline...
I was raised on movies, sure. I love movies. Current events are such that I have to give myself pause everytime I catch Michael Bay or Mimi Leder knocking over metropolis in their respective f/x epics...When John McClane chases down bomb-happy Gruber the Second in the bowels of New York....Edward Norton waking up to a psychosis-free existance as the coporate buildings collapse on a stale world....When Kurt Russell and Steven Segal take out fanatical terrorists on a 747...
(Aaah..I exaggerate...that movie was Kurt's....Segal was flushed out early.)
I caught myself watching Ed Zwick's eerily prophetic(?) "The Siege" this afternoon. Guess I had to see something where the good guys win while keeping focus of the things that are important. Maybe it just works well in the script...
(Point? I'm getting there...promise.)
It's a new world out there. We are forced to reassess our values, and perhaps we should. Family, friends, faith...(alliteration unintended.) But much of it comes to identity, to. We have to redefine ourselves, and this we shouldn't have to do.
I'll be damned if I'm going to let some fanatical terrorist decide (directly or indirectly) what I can and cannot find entertaining for a few hours. It's a movie. A movie.... If the people who would do something like this (I say this not knowing at whom to point the judgemental finger--that's not my job) had their way, I'm sure they'd put the whole world in check. No explosions, no naked chicks, nothing. Hell, no movies. They corrupt society, anyway. Here's your pancake, no more syrup for you.
I have family and friends in New York, Jersey, Pennsylvania...I'm sure many if not all of you know the terror that leadens your shoulders and chills the blood in your kidneys when you're waiting for that damned busy signal to go away...
I'm sure it will make some people very sad to see the former skyline of the Big Apple. It should make them angry, as well. We can hold ourselves in check for so long before our censorious nature does not protect us from our sorrows, but defines our cultural fears.
That's when the "terrorists" win. Fear is the mind-killer, young Atreides.
We should be afraid...but not of our entertainment.
Get out and enjoy a movie. Thanks. God bless. And America.