Posted by molting at 195.8.161.21 on January 27, 2003 at 10:59:28:
Apologies for a couple of new er cock ups.
" kennedy died in 63 poor John F," NOT jackie. sorry
and
" we as a people decide is shady's as bad as they say he is, " think i was waffling nation, a time ago.
I feel like fuckin the whole thing off, i have mood swings i suppose, it's no crime, just un-aviodable if we are not thinking striaght.
(i've walked a few miles since last here.. by the way..mi strides are shit to fuck)
At the moment i feel that paranoid that any one here could be any one of the people i try and avoid back ahome, just cuz i've no answer at the moment to the thousands of questions that are floating around and all the small talk seems to be getting too big, and not good.
I do not truly hate anyone. For a while there was one i could cheerfully saty i hate, but now i have to laugh... Can you believe it i have to laugh, AND HOPE NOT TO DO IT ALL OVER.
sO with all the chat that i've been oblivious to amounting greivoulsy, i'm currnelty piss sick to say something at least.
I do not notice what is goin on around me, in honesty i am really burying my head, is this wrong, .
well it would be if i where being totally idle, but i am trying to sort out some of my own chips, that is summat, so i am trying hard NOT TO BLAME OTHER PEOPLE FOR MY MISTAKES OF THIS SUMMER AND THE PAST YEARS,
where i have been amblin along on and off for too long with my head in the sand.
It is sooooo easy however to blame all the people around me for all the things i've done that where childish immature avoiding (lazy), re-miss?? well you must know the kind of thing we cast stones to others like, (pssst it's us who are doin it ON OCCASION when we think,, ) it's a damn shame for us. I suppose, is it hell it's not a problem when you say it , cuz then someone elsde says they do that shit thing aswell and then alls well that ends well. hopefully.
"it's the end of the world as we know it
it's the end of the world as we know it
and i feel fine i feel fine..."
a kid watin for me to do one,
Thanks God Bless All