Posted by Bo Holbrook at dialup-67.74.242.251.dial1.baltimore1.level3.net on June 02, 2003 at 09:52:51:
Kevin,
I only heard today what happened to your father. I feel your pain intensely man. I know what it is like to lose someone so close to you although who I lost wasn't my father I loved him just as much if not more.
About 5 years ago my grandfather passed away. He held on for a few months in the hospital and was coherent enough for us all to visit him. I was lucky enough to see him just weeks before he died. I spent some hours with him in the hospital before he passed. I was luckier than most people were. My grandfather was my whole world, He was the best person in the world. He wasn't just a relative. He was my best friend. I'd give anything to have one more day with him. I wish he would have lived long enough to see me make something of myself. He was so proud of me.
A bit more closer to home to your situation. I recently moved to Pittsburgh to live with my girlfriend. I left my family behind in West Virginia. My father is in poor health, Due to years of smoking. Recently he's turned to drugs. In what I think is an attempt to ease some type of pain he's feeling due to his declining health but it's only serving to kill him further. I love my dad and it pained me to leave him in such condition. I'm fully aware my father hasn't gotten many years left on his life but I left for here anyway because I had to do it if I wanted to make something of myself. He understood this but I still feel bad about it. Even moreso now with the passing of your father. It really puts things in perspective and makes me want to see my father at least one last time and tell him how I feel. Give him a hug and let him know how much I appreciate him.
I greive for your loss Kevin, and I also thank you. You have inspired me to find some way to see my dad at least one more time. How i'll d that I haven't figured out yet but I don't want him to die before I get the chance to at least tell him I love him one more time or say goodbye.
Thanks Kevin, You are a great human being.