Posted by Heather~Empress of Typos & TMI at netcache-2004.public.lawson.webtv.net on August 12, 2003 at 01:08:55:
In Reply to: Building America poll by poll. posted by SweetIrony on August 11, 2003 at 14:06:24:
: : 5) What should Heather be the Queen of today?
: The Queen of Moving On (and finding a cyber lover, who would then make Scott so jealous he would return to her, cause he obviously still cares).
I have moved on in ways. Just not the way you are saying.
I have absolutely no interest in finding any other man what so ever, does not appeal to me in the slightest, i even had a guy contact me wanting to "start as friends" or somthing like that and it made me feel sick to my stomach.
I have to do what my heart tells me and what i feel is right.
What that is loving, supporting and forgiving Scott for any hurts etc while being his closest friend.
and he does still care, still loves me dearly, and tells me and anyone who will hear it that.
but i have to let him go to do what he needs to do
and i will love and support him while he does and be his friend and one day we could heal enough to come back together.
I do not want to play games, it needs to be about honesty and realness, especially now, and trying to make him jealous would be a game.
as i stated in a response to miss D, whats really giving me grief is my living situation, family and disabilty issues.
Scott and i have reached a better place.