Posted by Crakehead at spider-wd053.proxy.aol.com on November 28, 1999 at 02:08:35:
In Reply to: Bartleby's Last Thoughts posted by McJ on November 27, 1999 at 21:29:39:
: This is a little something I wrote after having watched Dogma. It's got spoilers and such so beware if you haven't seen the flick. And also, this poem ended up being a little too long. Still, it conveyed what I was trying to express so I'm happy. Let me know what you think. I'm really hoping that this whole thing shows up.
: I look into Her eyes and then I realize
: All I want to do is apologize
: But its too late and I've gone too far
: And I think briefly of the Morningstar.
: How did I become this lost and deceived?
: Look at what I am as compared to what I used to be
: My shame so deep but only now
: So blinded, I forgot the truth somehow.
: I had long since fallen and gone my own way
: And now I look into Her eyes and know not what to say
: All this time I thought I'd been betrayed
: But in actuality it was my sin for making him stray.
: I couldn't understand it before
: As to why I wasn't welcomed anymore
: Why I was cursed to this existence
: That lead me to wage this war.
: I see in a grim vision
: All those in the past
: Who ate the fruit
: And suffered Her wrath.
: I convinced my friend
: That Her ways were wrong
: That he had to stand up to Her
: That he had to be strong.
: And he did what I urged
: And threw down his sword
: He rejected his duty
: And forsaked his Lord.
: It was because of me
: Don't you see?
: In my self-rightousness
: I turned him away from his duty.
: And in that act
: We sealed our fates
: We were forever barred
: From entering the gates.
: Then one day came this plan
: A way to return to where we were banned
: I urged him again to follow my way
: And I knew that he would all the end.
: As we journeyed
: My bitternes grew
: My motives changed
: As I threw away all once held true.
: He tried to warn me but my resentment was too deep
: I would strike back and not delay
: And let all those who stood in my way
: Innocence regardless, have hell to pay.
: He reminded me of the one before
: Who had too been denied entrance to the sacred doors
: But I refused to listen, fueled only by rejection
: I would not give in, I had broken down and given in to sin.
: I laid my judgement and vengeance upon them all
: Showed them that I was powerful while they were small
: No one would stop me now this close to my goal
: I would enter those doors and purify my soul.
: He tried once again
: To deter me from my missioin
: There was no pause as I plunged
: The knife into his skin.
: No remorse for killing my best friend.
: How did I get here
: And become this thing
: I grieve for what may have happened
: Had She not intervened.
: I had wanted to strike Her back
: And take from her as she had taken from me
: Now I know she wasn't to blame
: It was my transgression, now plain to see.
: Yet I held her accountable
: All the same
: But now I've learned my lesson
: And crumble before Her in shame.
: She embraces me one last time
: And I feel that touch that I was lost without
: I let go and weep for what I have done
: How I had turned against here and for what I'd become
: She opens her mouth and reveals a cry
: And as I close my eyes
: I say goodbye to Her presence once more
: Then there is emptiness as my body dies.
: Chris