Posted by zeta at rrcs-midsouth-24-199-216-8.biz.rr.com on July 19, 2003 at 01:18:47:
In Reply to: It is hard for me to post here now posted by Heather & the infinite sadness on July 18, 2003 at 23:10:34:
Trust me when I tell you that I have hit this type of low before. ANd honestly-it sounds as if you depend on this man for way too much. I once did this myself and almost drove myself to insanity because I believed that I could not live-breath-without him. That was 5 years ago and I am alive and kicking and have fallen in love again since then. I've learned a lot from that experience and one thing it taught me was to be responsible for my own happiness and feeling of self worth. It also taught me that if one relationship doesn't work that its ok. Doesn't mean they will all fail. I'm a firm believer that every thing happens for a reason, and I honestly believe that the heartbreak I suffered 5 years ago was preparing me for something else. I mean I lost it over this guy-lost weight, crying fits, couldn't sleep, wouldn't go out, couldn't have fun...agggghhh! I was convinced he was my soul mate and that I would never find another. Well-I found another and he was even better and I was in love even more so. And when this one left TOO, I was able to hold it together in a way I don't think I would've been able to if it hadn't been for the previous relationship. Today-the second guy and I are still friends and are working to heal the wounds we both inflicted on the other. I've decided that I will accept whatever decision he makes regarding our relationship and that I will accept him. It has been a load off of my shoulders. I encourage you to accept your husband and his decision and to LIVE your life-one day at a time. Go to a support group in your area-make new friends. If you'd like check out this self help group(very reputable and well known). Its called Landmark Education. I think it might help. They also have a web page. I think its www.landmark.com or something like that. I wish you all the happiness in the world.
Zeta