Posted by Slavei at adsl-68-72-123-93.dsl.chcgil.ameritech.net on November 07, 2003 at 22:00:08:
In Reply to: I can never tell...... posted by SilentFilmStar on November 07, 2003 at 21:21:31:
Sometimes I can't even tell.
There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed. My pain is constant and sharp and I do not hope for a better world for anyone, in fact I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape, but even after admitting this there is no catharsis, my punishment continuous to allude me and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself no new knowledge can be extracted from my telling. This confession has meant nothing.