Posted by SilentFilmStar at sdn-ap-022tnnashp0147.dialsprint.net on November 07, 2003 at 23:52:25:
In Reply to: I am conflicted, yes. posted by Slavei on November 07, 2003 at 22:00:08:
and I'm being serious. We should talk on Instant Messenger sometime--could be a really interesting conversation, I think.
What do you think?
: Sometimes I can't even tell.
: There are no more barriers to cross. All I have in common with the uncontrollable and the insane, the vicious and the evil, all the mayhem I have caused and my utter indifference toward it I have now surpassed. My pain is constant and sharp and I do not hope for a better world for anyone, in fact I want my pain to be inflicted on others. I want no one to escape, but even after admitting this there is no catharsis, my punishment continuous to allude me and I gain no deeper knowledge of myself no new knowledge can be extracted from my telling. This confession has meant nothing.