Posted by Easterbunny at d1-3-0-0-22.a02.ptldor01.us.ce.verio.net on February 07, 2003 at 12:55:41:
Maul IMd me last night and reminded me that I didn't share with all of you lovely
people here what happened when I told the love of my life that she was the love of
my life. For those of you who didn't see it this is what I told her
"I don't know if you know this but for a long time I've had somewhat of
crush on you. And I know you have a boyfriend, and I'm not expecting
anything out of telling you this but I just had to let you know that I like
you, a lot. I love having you as a friend and I'm sorry if saying this has
fucked anything up but I had to tell you because keeping this in wasn't
good for anyone. I really want, and need, to keep you as a friend, you're
such a great person. But I wasn't being a good friend by keeping this
inside. Whatever you want to do with this information is your decision. And
I want you to know that I'm always there for you. I just needed to tell you
this because it's time for me to try and move on if what I want to happen
isn't going to happen. But most importantly I need you to know that I must
keep you as a friend. And I know that you may not feel the same way I feel
about you, and if you're upfront and honest with me, trust me there is no
way you can hurt my feelings. But what's most important is our friendship."
Well I was scared as shit in the toilet when I did it but it worked out ok... I guess. She
said she's trying to work things out with her boyfriend (they were going through a
rocky time when I told her this. She said that she didn't want to get "emotionally
fucked up". She still wants to stay friends, and I’m fine with that because she's a
really good friend, but I was really crushed for a few days after that. I really felt like
she was the one, and even though I'm only 17, I felt I had met my soul mate.
Obviously she doesn't feel the same. Oh well it's time to move on, it wasn't meant to
be. But I'm done with what I have to say. This was just to keep you guys updated on
my love life (I'm sure you guys really care). Well on to my next love.
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